From "no where" on sterroids.

So yeserday I blogged it up about things happening at the most random times and places. This happened to me again this morning but this time even more bizarre. You're gonna flip... just like I did (well... maybe).

First I should give you a little background. My mail/pool key (which I keep on a red lanyard) has been MIA for about 3 weeks. I think my cousins left it @ the pool while they were visiting. I've been searching for it... and even called them to find out where it could be. They swore they left it in my apartment.

Ok... so here's where it gets super wierd. I left my apartment this morning for work and decided to go a different way to the freeway. I stopped at a light (I'm the first car, nearest to the crosswalk) and two women walk across the crosswalk. They both look pretty ghetto... tweakerish. The one in particular was black, bald head and looked pregnant... and had a red lanyard, with my mail/pool keys attached, around her neck!!! I kid you not.... it's my lanyard w/ my keys. The pool key has a distinct look and I swear I saw it.

Well... if you know me, you know I freaked out. Got shortness of breath and thought, oh my God... someone has my mail key and is getting into my mailbox, taking all of my mail and will steal my identity. So I called my apartment complex, explained the situation and had them check my mail. All of my mail was there so it didn't appear that anyone was in my box. Whewwww! That was quite the load off!

Anyway.... my key is still missing, I'm going to look for it again, in my apartment, and hopefully it turns up. Of course I wont find it though if the lanyard around the stangers neck was mine. Bizarre.

God definitely used this situation to speak to me. He showed me that I have an issue with irrational fear... and aren't all fears irrational?? My favorite acronym for fear is "False Expections Appearing Real". The leader of my bible study shared a quote with us that reads, "One constantly finds that 90% of our trials and sorrows are made up of anticipated or imaginary evils which only exist in our disordered, unbelieving minds".

The Lord also showed me that I am waaaaay more blessed than I can begin to think or imagine. No matter what, I am to praise God always. He's protected me and shielded me from wickedness. Isaiah 41:10 says, "Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand".

I've been listening to the gospel song, "Make me over" and it's been my prayer these last few days. Here are part of the lyrics:

Time after time I failed you
Pierced your side when they already nailed you
Jesus heal my open wounds
I just want to be more like you
Father I let you down
what's not like you just take it out
Reconcile me Jesus, I just want to please you, wash me and make me whole

Lord make me over
Make me over again

Make me over again Lord
cause I'm tired of my evil ways
and I want to make a change
make me over Lord

I can feel the Lord making me over, molding my heart in line with His will and showing me His ways. It's not an easy process but so crucial. Could the Lord possibly be preparing my heart for a supernatural miracle to take place?? All I know is His word says, "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free" John 8:32. I thank the Lord for the freedom I've found in His truth... and for loving me... in spite of me.