Peace... at last.

God must have known how much I needed that hug yesterday... because last night I got - from the exact person He knew I needed it from. Yep, you guessed it, from "H"! We had a good talk last night that reiterated many things and got us both on the same page, again, in knowing where we're both @. I got to tell him all that was on my heart and it felt so awesome to lay it all down and know that I said all I had to say. He told me that no matter what happens, I'm amazing to him, he loves me and I have no idea the impact I've made on his life. Wow! That fact alone is amazing - I've managed to make a difference in someone else's life, I've made someone else better - that's why I'm here, that's why I exist... and isn't that what love is all about?! If nothing else - that's something! If one of us were to take our last breath in this moment, I'd know he loves me and I love him - which is all that truely matters. I'm blessed having in in my life - whether it be for a season or a lifetime. Right before I left to go home, we hugged and it lasted... and I had an overwhelming feeling of love surround me. I knew in that moment God is working and sure, I don't know what the outcome will be - whether we'll end up together or not - but the love and embrace we shared is enough and will be enough for now.

I woke up this morning with peace that transcends my understanding. I'm not dwelling, not anxious or worried... and I know God is working. I've realized that I'm not meant to understand the complexities of this situation as of right now - and when I start to question everything and freak out again (because I know the time will come), I'll force myself back to the truth/peace of right now... and focus on the following things God & I are working on (which are more than enough to keep me busy):

• Allowing God to be the Lord of my life
• Being continually filled/controlled by the Holy Spirit
• Supernatural healing
• Forgiveness

I start dancing again tonight! Yayers! Dance is one of the few things in this world that allows me to completely release, leaving my issues @ the door. The moment I walk barefoot on that hardwood floor it's just me and movement..... whewww.